I have been think about my ex-boyfriends and why they are ex-boyfriends. I loved them all but there was something missing. That same feeling of love that I was giving. One did try but his own issues caused him to have break downs. At time I wish I could shut it off. Love I mean... I just want to be me and get something’s done for me like finding a job without my love life or the lack of one hopping into my head. At time I wish I could shut off and be like a Nun but I have yet to find out how.

I just needed to clear out my head.