Being Me

My Baby is due at the end of January. I don't want to be pregnant any more. I mean I want the baby to be here just I don't want to be the vessel which it has to come through. I know I should not think like that. I know I am supposed to be happy and joyful but I just want it to be over. I don't to dislike my baby cause I am stressed out. I supposed to be in love with him before he is here and i just want him out.