Being Me

I am so confused and tired. I don't know what to do. I feel it moving and that freaks me out. I cant wait to find out what it is. Don't care what we have as long as it is healthy.
Love life:
I don't feel loved even throw he tries. It doesn't feel genuine. Maybe is just me and my crazy emotions.
I do want to be a wife one day and he doesn't have have plans on getting married again. At one point in my like I like the idea of a life partner. But I want a Husband not a life long boyfriend. I have no idea what to do.